so bradley has not been going to sleep for going on a week now. he needs to have every single stuffed animal in his crib and every single blanket within eyesight in his crib also so i cleaned out our room seeing as how we share a room right now he takes my blinkets too. so i took some of the blankets and stuffed animals out tonight he has his favorites so he went on to hording BOOKS into his bed... i almost had a nervous breakdown... finally it clicked.... so i ran to a box of pictures i had in…
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Added by Jenn on October 19, 2009 at 8:57pm —
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ok so i have been in a downward hurtle for about going on 3 weeks. no energy AT ALL depressed i dont even want to get up and do my hair or get ready, i dread days that i have to stay home, all i want right now is to just sleep for days and days and not answer to anyone... but i have a son, this also upsets me ill explain.
since the whole peter thing blew up in my face HE now says he needs space from everyone (bull shit its just me, because right now i know he is at her place) anyway his whole s…
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Added by Jenn on September 19, 2009 at 11:11pm —
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well i didnt listen to my gut AGAIN and got hurt. stupid me. turns out im not good enough again, or just (again) picked the wrong person to spend my time with. he is now sleeping with another woman.. get this his ex wifes boyfriends ex wife. makes me just feel all warm and fuzzy inside. so lets say im going to move again... um yeah shit hit the fan and i was up there with it. BUT i do have a plan this plan is better then my last plans and i can see it working much better. so i work for a year sa…
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Added by Jenn on September 7, 2009 at 9:13pm —
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peter is back... he just went to go get his dad that will be here for 6 weeks. i cant wait hill things go back to normal.. but i think they have been so un normal for so long that it might stay like this... but thats ok. im getting my very own ferret soon i am soo damn excited i love ferrets so much. her name from her owner now is sugar and i call them fairies so her name will be sugar ferry like ferret hahaha oh it cracks me up. so ill be very happy and busy with her, i so cant wait.
on anothe…
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Added by Jenn on July 12, 2009 at 7:30pm —
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so i need to do something this fall. i have to i cant live like this anymore. i went to the college and found out they arnt going to have a daycare any time soon like they said they where, so my plans are yet again set on a new road. i dont have a licence. i know its my deep dark awful secret i hate it i hate it so much. im going AGAIN on wednesday because ive tried 14 times... im NOT stupid just to put that out there i have really bad test anxiety its stupid so i am going again. so i cant go to…
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Added by Jenn on July 5, 2009 at 5:23pm —
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oh man the days go by so slow. i just wish it can be the 11th. OH BUT peter phoned me from france omg i was so happy so happy infact that i felt like a total dork... he said there was no wayhe can contact me or me contact him so for him to phone I THINK is a big deal and it wasnt just to check up on his stupid plants. i think i do cheer him up quite a bit not to sound all high on myself or anything but when he is done talking to me he is much more happy.... i dunno anyway it just made me happy i…
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Added by Jenn on July 1, 2009 at 10:30pm —
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so i think that i am in that zone of being a snoop, there was this girl hailey that i used to talk to while i was pregnant. she went out with kennys brother. and she was also "pregnant" now what got me to be a snoop was that i went on one of my old email pages and saw she was still alive ( i stopped talking to her a few months before brad was born because it was all just a bunch of drama) and so i sent her a message, maybe hoping i could get some stupid info on kenny just to see if he really had…
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Added by Jenn on June 28, 2009 at 9:30pm —
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well im in the house alone. for 2 weeks 2 WEEKS. i have slight anxiety being alone in a house by myself... alone. plus i have to keep a huge amount of plants alive, hedgehog and a fish... i hope i can do it i know it isnt that hard i just dont want to let peter down. lol i know i need to clam the hell down because its not a big deal.
aaaah anyway i think i like the fact i have more responsability around here i feel i pay too much not to be able to do anything around here plus i get to go play w…
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Added by Jenn on June 26, 2009 at 7:50pm —
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hmm i thought it was longer since i posted.
well i had an appointment with my doctor yesterday and i said that bradley was driviing me nuts... as all toddlers would he blew it out of proportion and went on for 45 min about an open adoption... it was a bit odd i got really upset also so it wasnt a very good afternoon. but things got better after dinner and ive been alright so things are better.
bradley was better today he wasnt so grumpy so it made life alot more better.
i get to go shopping t…
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Added by Jenn on June 23, 2009 at 6:13pm —
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this is the 4th time that i have sat down and tried to type something out. what im trying to feel what i want to say. i cant so i am just going to wait till tuesday or something see if when i get out what i need to get out to that person will make any difference... bla
today was alright. i blew a fuse so i dont have any power to my bathroom or my bedroom... kinda sucks but atleast it isnt the whole house. got some guy to look into it and he doesnt even know what the problem is.
anyway think im…
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Added by Jenn on June 13, 2009 at 9:26pm —
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i am lost i dont know what to do.
i am struggling from day to day month to moth on the money i get to live on. im going back to school in september but ENOUGH is enough i cant live like this. i seriously have 79 cents to my name right now and i have to make it till the 20th. i manage my money as well as i can all i spend it on is my son and his food and diapers and clothes if need be. i am on the verge of an eating disorder because i dont want to eat i refuse to eat because i have to save the f…
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Added by Jenn on June 9, 2009 at 10:03pm —
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do i do or care too much to the point of creeping people out?
i dont know if its a bad thing... but if someone is upset i am right there i want to do all i can to help and if i cant help then i just feel totaly helpless. i dont know if i drive people to be creeped out at me or if... i dont know but i dont have alot right now and peter is upset and having a crappy couple of weeks. now we all know our "relationship" is a bit weird so i made him a huge cookie... and wrote a note and left it on his…
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Added by Jenn on June 5, 2009 at 5:05pm —
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welll today was pretty good was out on the lake all day. got quite brown, aaand got back home it was a mess but i guess i can do that tomorrow. must clean beacuse this place is a pig hole. but it was pretty good today.
hope everyone else had a good day or had a good thing happen today.
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Added by Jenn on June 3, 2009 at 7:38pm —
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mmmk so i think i complain too much, but i think its because i keep it all in because i have no place to put my thoughts.
i...... have been sitting here for about 10 min trying to figure out how to put what im trying to say. DO NOT SEE hes just not that into you... gooooosh if you want to go into a state of depression there you go. it was supposed to be funny but i couldnt even finish watching it :( im so sick of relationships they really are too complicated now adays. does everything have to b…
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Added by Jenn on June 2, 2009 at 10:17pm —
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ok i am now candidate for worst mom. bradley wont listen to me no matter how much i try and how much i say no and how every many time outs in a row i just cant seem to get him to listen!
i have a pool in my backyard. death trap i know. it was bound to happen but he just wont listen he would sit and put his arms in and get very close to falling in and i would take him away and he would go back take him away and go back say no and danger and all that stuff he would jsut go back. today he jumped a…
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Added by Jenn on June 1, 2009 at 5:05pm —
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thanks for the comments i didnt think i would get any so quickly:)
this morning... i think im starting to lose my mind. i feel so trapped in my place. i have a deadline to finish the illustrations for the book by tuesday and the author keeps wanting to change things and i know i wont have it done if she doesnt stop that. and i have my son that is here and i feel bad that he has to stay in all day while i work my butt off on these drawings. .. and then he gets bored and then gets into trouble an…
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Added by Jenn on May 31, 2009 at 9:11am —
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im new here. and i have no firends where i am no one to talk to my family isnt there for me and i am looking after my 2 year old son. i have have 3 breaks from him since i have had him and they are never relaxing because my mother is always upset when she watches him. i am going back to school in september.. and i am trying to get him into daycare at the school. but i dont know if i can do this without support i am just fried.
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Added by Jenn on May 30, 2009 at 7:01pm —
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