i have had it with 'him'. its like he can move on so quickly and leave his daughter just like THAT. but what pisses me off most, is that he pretends that he still cares!
i suppose i am kinda annoyed cos i thought he had some love for me - and the way he has carried on, he doesnt care at all. i dont want him back, but i dont want to feel like that last 3/4 years were a complete waste. he really doesnt care on any level... the only time he phones is when he asks for money! i gave him some - i shouldnt have done really - but he has nothing now. cant believe his sister is charging rent for having him stay, well i can, but she is demanding it right out, even when niether of us have the money! talk about some family.
today has been okay, apart from dealing with 'him'. got the house decorated, cos it was in a state with crayon and god knows what on the hallway walls! babies!
watched a show yesterday, which went into typical childhoods of a group of children in the UK. i was really enjoying it up until this little girl came on. her parents were divorced, and she still saw them. the show started to ramble about how children that werent in a nuclear family were less positive, have relationship problems and are more likely to experience mental problems. it really upset me for the first time - cos it made me feel like i had failed faith, as i COULD have stayed with her dad.. i mean he wasnt hitting me or abusing faith... or anything like that.... but he was useless >_< . i probably could have dealt with it and carried on? i THINK i am doing the right thing now, and its not like faith wont have any male role models in her life... at least she wont have him, watching me running around working my butt off just to look after him. i cant deal with that.
i suppose i have made my decision now... so cant really go back on it even if i wanted to... not that i do!
im doing the right thing for faith... arent i?

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your baby is adorable and I love your page!
Welcome to iHeart, Kate!