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Anyone else sick of the emotional rollercoaster of divorce recovery? I asked for my divorce. Four months later, I should be happy and free. Sometimes I am. And sometimes I spend the day crying at my desk and screaming in my car. Not because I want him back. Not because I didn't want the divorce. I don't know why. Maybe it's just all too overwhelming? Maybe because I thought I was taking control and escaping eight years of control and jealousy and instead he left me and my son and took that contr… Continue

I was married for 8 years, from age 21 to age 29. Waking up from that long relationship, I realize that 1) I missed my entire 20s and 2) all the men my age look so damn old!!! LOL. Heading back into the dating world, I feel like I'm about 16 again. I don't know how people do this. The other thing I've found is that most nights I want to just crawl under my bed with a bottle of wine and hide. I initiated the divorce and I don't want him back so why am I feeling so damn bad? I think it's the overw… Continue

So my son has been having "issues" since his Daddy left the country in early July and decided not to return. He is five and full of energy and excitement. He's had listening/attention issues in the past, but lately it has gotten much worse and it's hard to tell what is from his reaction to the abandonment, what is normal five year-old behavior and what is acting out. I hate that I cannot tell the difference. The sweet side of me really doesn't want to crack down on him because I feel like if I'm… Continue