First holidaze without the significance of the significant other.........

[Todd J. Miska]

Ok folks by now I bet you are all thinking that I should be over this breakup by now, right?....
Well I am not. SInce the breakup I have had to endure several holidays that were significant to us as a family. We are approaching The 4th of July and I am beginning to dread this like I dreaded all the other. This holiday is diffrent because this one was a highlite of the summer and 1 that I looked forward 2 more than My birthday of fathers day etc. I was walking with my son getting toiletries for the pad and where we go is were we been (get it)? So naturally I am led to see all the couples holding hands and laughing likw we used to and today I heard the first BOOM in the air. I said "now it beginns". That sound got my mind reeling. I guess my problem is I had a 99 percent chance at a forever scenario and due to a large handfull of mistakes and missed cues I lost that not just for me my Boyz too. Will I ever be able to truly love again or am I going to be in pain forever??? Believe me I am trying, therapy other women as friends Promise Keepers, Church, KIdz etc but I am always reminded of the absence of what I thought was my soul mate.......................TJM

[Jen]

In reading a lot of your posts, you seem to take the blame about the break up of your relationship. It takes two to tango - while you can look back and see the things you would have done differently, you seem to be missing all the things that she did wrong too. Give yourself permission to move on - rather than dragging all the baggage of your relationship with you. It seems to be weighing you down.

[Lee]

Todd J.
Don't dwell on what ''I'' did wrong. Jen is right. It takes TWO to make it work. Take it one day or one step at a time. ''We'' are not alone. Lee