Ok folks by now I bet you are all thinking that I should be over this breakup by now, right?....
Well I am not. SInce the breakup I have had to endure several holidays that were significant to us as a family. We are approaching The 4th of July and I am beginning to dread this like I dreaded all the other. This holiday is diffrent because this one was a highlite of the summer and 1 that I looked forward 2 more than My birthday of fathers day etc. I was walking with my son getting toiletries for the pad and where we go is were we been (get it)? So naturally I am led to see all the couples holding hands and laughing likw we used to and today I heard the first BOOM in the air. I said "now it beginns". That sound got my mind reeling. I guess my problem is I had a 99 percent chance at a forever scenario and due to a large handfull of mistakes and missed cues I lost that not just for me my Boyz too. Will I ever be able to truly love again or am I going to be in pain forever??? Believe me I am trying, therapy other women as friends Promise Keepers, Church, KIdz etc but I am always reminded of the absence of what I thought was my soul mate.......................TJM
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